This questions is inevitable, and it's quite interesting that it may arrive at the beginning, the middle, and the end with an equal opportunity fitness for purpose. The answer depends of course on where we think each path takes. Which "It" is more worth it? Leading to further defining of it and still more weighing of options, in the classic balancing of potential options. And each question answered leads to a further question of what the answer to the first question meant, and the answers to those questions drive actions toward a goal, and that process continues. Now that I've thoroughly confused myself, we can get to the answer.

In some writing styles, one learns to write a short answer to the question, then the explanation, and in this way the reader is not left to wonder what the conclusion will be after all that analysis going on. Begin with the end in mind. And it's almost like you know how the story ends, you just wonder how it gets there.

It's totally worth it. I would like to put the effort in to make the changes to get the desired result. This is the decision I made long ago. I have not changed my decision. But I learn that my decision doesn't matter enough to make it a reality in this context. I've got to make a few things reality on my own. Ladies and gentlemen, our tour bus has taken a wrong turn. We're gonna get back on happy road with this left turn now.

I am looking forward to building a life with this certain woman. I love the idea of our children growing up and having her for their mother. We do so well together, and she is my favorite person in the whole world. I like to hear about how she sees the world. Her laugh softens me. She makes me a better person, and I love to watch her shine. The way she started taking classes, met folks, got to know folks, then started teaching classes on her own. She started her own group and has led it successfully for months. She creates with love and shares it with the world, through her classes and her projects and her friendships. This young lady is out there getting it. I'm so proud of what she accomplishes. I just want to support her in that.

I know you're reading this right now thinking this might be written about you, and you could be right. It's about someone who exists in this world, or another. This could be the tale of all tales to be told of the fairy realm. But nah, it's probably just some guy's experience dealing with life, writing it out, helping himself, maybe helping others; it's really a selfish move. The explanatory nature of writing and the slowness allows the thoughts to come just in time. I'm off topic again. I think we should have taken a right turn back there....

This writing has been a long time coming. I could have gotten these thoughts down before now. There's a beautiful exercise. Write down 3 good things about that person each day.

She's a great listener any time someone needs to just vent; She's supportive for friends through difficulties; She's friendly and considerate even when she's upset; I can think of examples that match those from just the past day. That's a good list.

Learning this easy thing the hard way... better late than never 😉