Not asking in the way of asking someone else if they are up for it, but asking in a sense of possibility. Are we capable of talking? To this, I must answer, Yes. We have communicated well in the past. Once the fears were taken away, our communication opened up. I was no longer afraid she was leaving me, so I could show all those sides. The trick is to not go back to hiding those things away. That's a familiar story, getting overly love-bomby, but this is different. This is not me telling her how awesome she is (although there is some of that); this feels more like a recognition that the way I had been acting didn't support her in the way she needed. The conversation happened, and I say it was just in time. This is perfect. We get to slow down and get back to ourselves. I got so far away from myself, and I noticed a shift in her as well, perhaps in reaction to me, it was a perfect storm, all the factors contributed, and we broke.

It wasn't what I wanted, and I had hoped we would just make it to the other side. Then everything would be okay. But without trying to fix the past, I forgive you. I apologize for making you feel that way. I was wrong. I surrender. Can you find it in your heart to forgive me?

Because the second half of this book is how the characters come out of the hardship, come together, and create the beautiful future together. That's not to mean that either one of us stops doing our thing. I refuse to allow you to make any changes for me. I also refuse to allow you to give in because you think it's what I want but goes against what you want. I think that's worded incorrectly. I never liked that you changed your life for me. I love to support your dreams. I am your biggest cheerleader. Can we please slow down? I don't want to spend a bunch of time with you; I don't want you to stop doing anything you have planned. I only want to be invited to watch you win. When you cross that finish line, I wanna give you a hug and a high five for your success. Some of these sentences feel random and not well organized.

The other funny part, I can be classified anyway and all events used to prove any conclusion. Whatever I decide to be true, that is true. If I decide this is my soulmate and we rushed things, then I can move forward slowly. If I decide this was all a mistake and remember the disagreements, then I can move forward in a different direction. It's up to me to decide what this was. I have been through this a lot, and I've decided she is my soulmate. I am looking at the disagreements, but then I remember that we actually came together after most of those. It was the last one where we also came back together, but the end result was the end. We were learning each other.